I'm going on my first silent mediation retreat this weekend. A weekend of silent, peaceful, communing with God along with powerful, caring men. Sounds like a recipe for calm and placid community right?
SO WHY AM I SCARED SHITLESS??? I've thought of many reasons why I shouldn't go and strangely enough the ideas seem to increase in frequency as the time draws nigh.
My longest times not saying anything is when I sleep (and even then I'm told I'm pretty chatty). And I meditated once for 45 minutes, but I think I may have slept for about 35 of them.
I don't get to use my phone and I'm acutely aware how addicted to it I am. OMG I'm like TOTS important and how will people feel about me like NOT responding to their texts or liking their photos/posts.
It would be hilarious to have a mental stenographer with me to record what are sure to be many entertaining thoughts I'll have.
That's enough, I'm going on this retreat and I'm going to be the WORLD'S BEST MEDITATOR. After this weekend I'm going to start training for the Olympic Meditation Competition. And who knows what performance enhancers I'll find to win it!
Wow, definitely time for me to practice being silent.