My relationship/friendship with God has taken an interesting turn. For the majority of my life I ascribed the capital letter G to God out of fear and necessity I guess. It was a sort of forced exultation. And apparently he was the only one around. He was kind of like this ultimate bouncer. Because he decided who got in to the club and who didn't.
And as far as I could tell, he didn't only let in slutty looking hot chicks immediately and leave an average looking, likeable fellow like me in purgatory until I bribed him or until he looked at me and just said...dude, you are so going to hell. He was that friend I could never really "connect" with but basically I had to say I knew him because everyone else I knew said they did. And I always had to go hang out at his house to see him once a week.
Then we had kind of a break-up. I decided that instead of trying to be God's groupie, that I was going to ignore him entirely. Fine dude, if I ONLY can see you at your place, then I'm just going to do my "own thing". So I started seeing other people.
I hung out with this one spirit that was a like a colorful liquid rainbow slowly advancing life. I spent some time with this man/woman combo type thing for a while. I even spent some time without a God because I figured I knew best.
It was cool because they came over to my place and I never felt rejected by any of them because they weren't really "friends" per se, they were just people that told me whatever I was doing was fine, even though it wasn't so fine.
So I came back to someone I decided to call god. And this god was super cool. god handled a ton of stuff for me that I couldn't handel myself. And god knew its place because by not capitalizing its name, it no longer was better than me or getting what I deemed to be a forced term of admission that goes beyond someone's regular name.
Just recently it changed again. I've decided to call God God. But see God's name could be Bill or Juan or Herbert. It's just the name of my friend. And like Bill or Mohammed (the most popular name on earth, THANK YOU Superbad) a lot of other people I know can be friends with someone named God too.
This friend however has a few twists. God doesn't get all worked up if I don't call. Actually, the only who seems to get worked up when I don't call God is me.
God comes over whenever I want, but ironically, even when I don't want God is still there, but not in that like annoying dude who always wants to be around me because he saw me do stand up comedy "that one time".
My friend God seems to always know how things are going to turn out and he knows they will always turn out ok. It's cool though because I can watch a movie with God and he won't be like "OMG, it's so cool when they find out that the letter was actually written by HER, not his ex-wife" (THANK YOU Silver Linings Playbook). When I start freaking out, he's the cool one who says, dude, it's all good trust me and while sometimes I do and sometimes I don't, it is all good.
My friend God has a ton of other great qualities, but the best one of all is my friend God will never leave me. I can get like super pissed or like talk bad about him to other peeps (come on dude, ANOTHER war, WTF???) and he's still like it's ok Tim that you talked me down. My friend God doesn't talk to me about other peeps who have other friends like my friend God and say that they are like totally fucked come time death rolls around, I'm down with that.
God's the friend that is everything I've ever dreamed of and some things I've never even thought of. God digs me and I dig him, he ain't heavy, he's my brother (THANK YOU the Hollies).
And brother, what a friend God is.