A few weeks ago my mom came to visit me and it was transformative. I experienced my mother in a brand new way. We talked about things with an honesty that had little reference for me.
Additionally, she has opinions that I don't completely agree with. Historically, I've judged them or at minimum got annoyed at them. This time I just let her be and accepted her for who she is.
I experienced a level of intimacy that's unfamiliar. It felt like a piece of my heart was lit that either has been long forgotten or never had been used.
It got me thinking about my relationship with my own version of god. I ascribe certain attributes to my god (and by the way, I'm not suggesting you do the same or believe in the god I do or even that you should believe in god).
My version of god is a perfect power. So, the question becomes: How do I become intimate with a power like that?
I learned that a great path to deep connection is embracing the fact that we're all human and connecting through that. We share pain, problems, happiness, uncertainty, etc. and we're there for each other.
But how do I become intimate with something that's perfect? A few friends suggested the answer may be faith.
Candidly, I don't really understand what they mean, but I did nod my head in agreement (hiyo!). But I suppose some level of faith that my god is working in my life does create a relationship.
I certainly can't lie to my god because it knows everything about me.
It's a bit confusing. But this is clear, if I can bring the experience I had with my Mom into my relationship with god, therein lies an infinite reward.