In the past year or so I've gotten a look or two into what it means to live, regularly at a heightened level of consciousness. It certainly has its benefits. I do get a shot at peace and happiness more often, but it comes with a price. That price is diligence. It's a responsibility that comes with the territory it seems that requires work.
Because of that, unfortunately I can feel the power of a spiritual entropy of sorts that wants to bring me back down to the levels I've been at previously. It's not something I'm particularly happy or proud of but it's a reality.
I'm learning that part of that life at the next level of consciousness requires a heightened awareness of how I lift myself and others up. The paradox is that while I'm learning that it's part of the deal, it's not something that appears to be easily intellectualized. I mean if it was as simple as an intellectual exercise then there would be lots of people at higher levels of consciousness.
There seems to be lots of different paths to go (some of which I've taken) to light that path, but I've tried some with mixed results.
As such, I can feel spiritual entropy manifesting and it's not too comforting.