Now, I could certainly tow the yoke and continue to walk the financial route, heck lots of people do it. If I did that, there are all types of nice, safe paths I can take with clear paths for advancement (some of which I've already walked). And as a father, sometimes I feel like it's the decision I "should" make.
But I'm coming to terms with the fact that I'm just not wired that way.
However, I've been hired for several engagements recently that use some of my best skills. Comparatively, the work is more...satisfying I guess, primarily because I always perform, I'm very well suited to the work. The challenge is that most of the paths from these engagements don't have a clear progression and are loaded with uncertainty.
I'm really leaning towards uncertainty and it admittedly produces some unusual moments. For example, today while watching You, Me and Dupree (God help me), I wondered if I could ever go in front of my daughter's classmates on career day and talk about what I do. (BTW, you know you are going deep into soul searching when your guides in include Owen Wilson and Matt Dillon....)
What do I really do? In essence, I make the complex simple. It's where I shine most working with start-up CEO's when presenting to investors, writing business plans, building financial models, designing online strategies, etc.
Alas, there is no Department of Simplicity at any big companies I know so I can't walk that path.
But it feels more and more like I'm at another crossroad and I'm sensing that I'm meant to try this career road less traveled and (paraphrasing my man Robert Frost) I'm hoping that it will make all the difference.